Saturday, January 3, 2009

Death.

bella

U see her smiling dont u?


Now let me tell u something. She's having a lung infection right now, & she's in STAGE 2. & when u reach STAGE 4, that means, u are no longer living in the planet earth.
Aku sakit, im still young for this.
When I've heard that Im already in stage two, I feel like, theres no hope for me, anymore, at all.
Kenapa tak mati kan aku terus, kenapa nk seksa aku dulu?
So Ive decided to let myself die, slowly. I drink lots of cokes without any food for the whole day, thinking that, that much gases will make me die slowly.

So I went to my matriculation college today. I need my kak anis, abg pally, abg rino, kiki & one of my closest friend there, diela.
Abg rino was like, torturing me by saying that Im gonna die sooner or later. Kak Anis is busy with her phone, kiki dont wanna meet me, diela keep asking me to be strong & abg pally was always there. I act like Im not sick at all. *eventho mmg sah2 diorang nampak aku batok macam nk mati besok subuh*

When its time for me to get back home, they make me cry.
They make me realize that eventho i dont love myself, THEY LOVE ME!
& now, Im gonna be strong, I'll try to, to live, for them.



P/S : Im going for check ups, to see whether I hv to go for operations asap or not.



Sick lil me.

11 comments:

-aMdaN seMpoi- said...

bro!!!
I love u too...
be strong...
fight, fight, fight!!!
hee~

Mira. said...

im so sorryyy to hear tht,
ily too bella.

ePa said...

uicks.... be strong la crazee......
lyfe goes on......

"Life goes on
Come of age
Can't hold on
Turn the page

Time rolls on
Wipe these eyes
Yesterday laughs
Tomorrow cries"

Can't Repeat Lyrics
Artist(Band):Offspring

ok..... wlaupon lgu jer....
bermakner tu..... =)

Icihiro Kisuke said...

live on
thats what aya used to say
she cry a lot too.
but
she is so strong
tuhan pn seksa dia like u
but she's live on.
huh
mybe u nak time machine sbb boleh ulang balik mase
boleh abes skolah
boleh hidup mcm budak2 lain
but, they always support u

DayanG AnnE said...

omg syg serios ke?
be strong, ok! i mean really!!
dun gv up, its never too late ok!
jz ikut ape doktor advise tau!

Umi Salmah said...

bella be patient!!!
we still love you.
hahahah idup kentut
tut... patah..
hahahah
be happy full fill your time
with good memories
enjoy..
and
ingat tuhan selalu....
tabah and slalu berdoa!!!
i wish u all the best!!!

saya said...

awal lg

c i x d i a k a c a u said...

hoi gadis!

ummi (: said...

serious babe?
anyway yah, be super STRONGG okay (:
friends LOVE you and they always do.
so dun give up and keepp onn rockin with ur life babyy ! haha.
tc.
;)

amy.437 said...

b strong,,gal~
evry single thing in dis world.
would happen with its own reasons.
cheers :)

RastaMat said...

Life is too SHORT if u take it serious..

Keep Thinking dude..