Death.

U see her smiling dont u?

Now let me tell u something. She's having a lung infection right now, & she's in STAGE 2. & when u reach STAGE 4, that means, u are no longer living in the planet earth.
Aku sakit, im still young for this.
When I've heard that Im already in stage two, I feel like, theres no hope for me, anymore, at all.
Kenapa tak mati kan aku terus, kenapa nk seksa aku dulu?
So Ive decided to let myself die, slowly. I drink lots of cokes without any food for the whole day, thinking that, that much gases will make me die slowly.

So I went to my matriculation college today. I need my kak anis, abg pally, abg rino, kiki & one of my closest friend there, diela.
Abg rino was like, torturing me by saying that Im gonna die sooner or later. Kak Anis is busy with her phone, kiki dont wanna meet me, diela keep asking me to be strong & abg pally was always there. I act like Im not sick at all. *eventho mmg sah2 diorang nampak aku batok macam nk mati besok subuh*

When its time for me to get back home, they make me cry.
They make me realize that eventho i dont love myself, THEY LOVE ME!
& now, Im gonna be strong, I'll try to, to live, for them.



P/S : Im going for check ups, to see whether I hv to go for operations asap or not.

Sick lil me.

Childish.

"nabilla yg daku kenal. mcm budak2 di mana jua anda berada! ;p" posted by finie.
Somebody please teach me about maturity cause i really dont have a clue.

Teach me not to :

[x] cry in front of public
[x] makan ice cream comot2
[x] eat frieskies instead of twisties cause they sound the same.
[x] jerit2 when i see a cockcroach
[x] ask anis to bath me, to comb my hair, to feed me with magi
[x] kiss my friends in front of publics while the pakcik makcik are staring at me
[x] call my mum to just say, "maaa, lapar spageti mama masakkkkk" then i hung up, macam babi bangang kan?
[x] dance in the rain. macam mentel je org sekeliling tgk but but, i dont know why i dont care about their ugly thoughts.
[x] call my dad and said, 'i miss your money, bank in sket boley?' sungguh durhaka kan?
[x] sleep while im on call
[x] sepak & tumbok kiki, kesian die oh.
[x] waste my time, & my money.
[x] sing all those britney old songs anymore.
[x] miss my cat, oddy. i cried when he crossed my mind.
bodoh, dah mati tu mati je laa bangang.
[x] love somebody, because it hurts.